Oct 05 2009
the final chapter
this post has been a long time coming. but there’s been no time to write it. it’s not been a priority. if there’s anything i hate, it’s a shitty ending. and let’s be honest, the way i abruptly quit blogging is a pretty shitty ending.
for the past 8 years specifically, i’ve thought of my life as a book. with chapters. maybe even a trilogy. a trilogy soooo shitty (shitty is apparently the word du jour.) that lifetime wouldn’t even make my life into a made for tv movie with a craptastic name starring alyssa milano as yours truly. anyway. somewhere in the midst of all of this i began blogging. i’ve bitched, whined, moaned, told stories, laughed, cried, and more. all on this blog. i’ve met fabulous people (both in person and just in the blogosphere) and i’ve enjoyed catching up with old friends.
but the time has come. the time has come for me to close the chapter on this blog. at least for now. i know i had a very loyal following. and i know i am probably disappointing you. if you are still reading this post, i am DEEPLY honored that you even came back here. i don’t deserve it. this URL got attacked by some malicious malware and just visiting this blog may have caused your computer some stress. i am sorry for that and i’m sorry for leaving. it’s obvious my heart hasn’t been into this for quite some time and it’s causing me guilt. i’d just as soon say goodbye for now and move on…
there are some things i’ll miss about blogging, but i honestly think the list of things i won’t miss is much bigger. i won’t elaborate because they aren’t all nice reasons and so i’ll just keep them to myself. i’ve found that using facebook and twitter are much more real time…much more of a conversation and it’s easier for me to update there than it is to come over here and blog. blogging is hard, yanno? it’s not easy for me to write an entire post here when i can write a single sentence on facebook and get instant responses.
in the past year i’ve quit smoking. i’ve gained 20 pounds. we bought a house. i changed jobs at the same company 3 times. THREE TIMES. we said goodbye to one dog and to one cat. we said hello to a new dog. i canned salsa and peaches all by myself for the first time ever. i coached a girls soccer team to an undefeated season. i read too many books. i made new friends. i said goodbye to friends. i laughed too loudly at inappropriate jokes. i cried over spilled milk. not literally. figuratively. i made a difference to some people. i probably pissed someone off. good. well, not good. but maybe i don’t care. i think that today i’m a better person than i’ve ever been in my life. and that’s a good thing.
my life isn’t perfect, but it’s pretty damn good. i’m exactly where i want to be - for now. who knows if it will be the same thing next year? knowing me, i’ll have climbed onto another branch to see if the view is any better from there.
bridge and al and i will always be friends. they know how much i love them and how much i’ve enjoyed this journey we’ve been on together. so.. friends. i’ll see you on twitter (http://twitter.com/jesscot) or facebook (http://www.facebook.com/jesscottle) or in real life.
xoxo
doesn’t everyone?? 
